Change terrifies me.  Hands down terrifies me.  Always has.

A few months ago I took a phone call from a recruiter on a new job opportunity.  I agreed to talk to them purely because the guy on the other end of the phone is one I spoken to in the past and I respect him.  Over the course of the last few weeks I slowly came to the conclusion that changing  jobs may actually be a good idea.

The problem is that I love the job I currently have and the team that I am with.  The new place offered me options that were better for my family than where I am currently at.  Eventually I put in my notice and discovered that I am a valuable asset to the company.  This should not have come as a surprise to me, but it did.  They gave me a counter offer that leveled the playing field as far as benefits and the family situation.

Now what do I do.  I discovered that when the field was leveled and the decision was purely about me and what I want for myself I froze up.  How do I make a decision like this.  Leaving a place I love, for the unknown of a new company.

Finally I read the following quote from a woman who I respect and has been in the background of my life for many years whispering in my ear, as any good muse should!

 While I realize change can be scary, there comes a time when our “good enough” isn’t “good enough” anymore and we have to leap past our fears with courage and boldness to live the life we want and deserve.

I never quite know what I want out of life.  Even after two months of contemplating leaving, it wasn’t until today that I realized I am making the right decision.  What become clear to me is that if I don’t take the leap to something new I will not grow in the direction I want to.  While the team I am on now is awesome, I feel like the opportunities offered at the new company will help me to grow in my career in a way that my current job will never be able to do.

Saying goodbye to the great team I am with now will be difficult.  But looking forward to whats coming up has me excited to see whats around the corner.