Change terrifies me. Hands down terrifies me. Always has.
A few months ago I took a phone call from a recruiter on a new job opportunity. I agreed to talk to them purely because the guy on the other end of the phone is one I spoken to in the past and I respect him. Over the course of the last few weeks I slowly came to the conclusion that changing jobs may actually be a good idea.
The problem is that I love the job I currently have and the team that I am with. The new place offered me options that were better for my family than where I am currently at. Eventually I put in my notice and discovered that I am a valuable asset to the company. This should not have come as a surprise to me, but it did. They gave me a counter offer that leveled the playing field as far as benefits and the family situation.
Now what do I do. I discovered that when the field was leveled and the decision was purely about me and what I want for myself I froze up. How do I make a decision like this. Leaving a place I love, for the unknown of a new company.
Finally I read the following quote from a woman who I respect and has been in the background of my life for many years whispering in my ear, as any good muse should!
While I realize change can be scary, there comes a time when our “good enough” isn’t “good enough” anymore and we have to leap past our fears with courage and boldness to live the life we want and deserve.
I never quite know what I want out of life. Even after two months of contemplating leaving, it wasn’t until today that I realized I am making the right decision. What become clear to me is that if I don’t take the leap to something new I will not grow in the direction I want to. While the team I am on now is awesome, I feel like the opportunities offered at the new company will help me to grow in my career in a way that my current job will never be able to do.
Saying goodbye to the great team I am with now will be difficult. But looking forward to whats coming up has me excited to see whats around the corner.